Twilight Induced Insanity

I was msg-ing this very corny friend of mine,H,earlier.He once wrote this..melody for me?

H : Heard that Twilight got romantic piano playing vampire right?
Me : Ya...the lullaby he play for Bella is called Bella's lullaby..
H : That sounds nice....*changes subject*
Me : Melody D Kenn would have been just as romantic if u didn't send it thru msn..
H : -_-
Me : OR..if u were a handsome vampire.

WAHAHAHAHA.Im having vampire fever!!!!

But..the Edward Cullen damn ugly lah.As if the nose is crooked lidat.I prefer Emmett,or even JACOB OMG.

Alice is damn awesome!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

*swooooons*

D:

If you thought i'm dramatic,you obviously haven't met my cousin's father's brother's wife.

And by cousin'sfather'sbrother'swife',i mean my mother.

lol.

Back from Penang on Wed,and immediately tuition about 15 mins later.Die or not??Crazy tuition rampage season..and why?

Bloody SPM.Sob.

D:

p/s:I know u all miss me x)

Watch Out For Me!

Penang,Here i cumome!

Boringg..

My life is so boring now..because i chosen to ground myself,maybe?

OR AM I ADDICTED TO THE DRAMA?

No idea..

Maybe i should just post nothing.Until i have something to post about,rather than continuously crap randomly with random things using random words that randomly pop up in my head...?

OH.I met like,the ultimate bimbo.She talks like,like this...:

'Oh like hi.Like.Like,uh,like,totally hi.Like you know like yesterday?I like,like went out and like,totally like bought like totally rockin' clothes..like,they were like on frickin' sale or something.'

SERIOUSLY.Man,some girls try too hard.

This is the same kinda girl that shows cleavage in every bloody picture(even though they've got no boobs whatsoever).This one girl i knew which is the EPITOME of this kinda girl,has cleavage in EVERY picture on friendster.

Then me and my friend stumble onto one while browsing thru her photos @ Thumbnail size and saw one picture and laughed as we said to each other,

'Finally one picture without cleavage!'

That picture was a picture of her.....back.We clicked on it,and upon closer inspection,my friend bellowed,

'OMGGGGGG LOOOK.GOT CLEAVAGE WAN.SHE SHOWING BUTT CLEAVAGE LAAAHHH'

-___-

This is also the kinda girl that wears really colourful bras in really transparent tops and wears a silicone bra underneath her push-up bra and finishes the outfit with heels and really,really,really short shorts to a mamak store,wedding,breakfast,lunch,beach,etc etc.

And she wears even LESS,trading her shorts for skirt(easier access ma) when she goes clubbing.

And then whines and whines on and on on her blog about how great the whole night was,how unhappy she was cause she got molested,and how great the whole night was.

She'd borrow other people's mugs of beer and take pictures with them.And bribe all the guys to stand really close and take pictures with her with flashes of/and vagina and boobs.

To her,all other girls are jealous bitches.

Also,she desperately wants a gay best friend because she wants to complain about getting molested to a guy who won't want to molest her.

The gay best friend has to be smart,rich,sporty,tall and lengchai enough to pretend to be her boyfriend so she always has a backup plan.

SORRY.Did i digress THAT much?

Dot[A]ddicT

Urm,just so clarify something..the last post isn't about you.Isn't completely for you anyway.The song's nice and emo and i can just relate.

And just so you know(and im sure you do!) i can relate to many many things(or people!) in life!So yeaHhhh!

*****

I am blogging nonsense and nuts and sacks and nonsense!Thank god i've got TUITION after TUITION tomorrow.Till around 4 in the afternoon then i can go DotA myself senseless.

Dota dota dota...why am i addicted to it?

Maybe cause it makes me feel so much better.It takes my mind off all the crappy things and i enjoy it too.

The weird thing is,i don't think my addiction stems from the fact that DotA is a whole lot of fun.I think it's the entire package and all that crap la.I mean like,i know i enjoy it,but i don't enjoy it that much.

I just love it so much because it's so comforting and familiar.I feel completely at ease trying to deny and last hit and buy stufff and chain lightning and triple kill! :D

So maybe it's a lil' bit of fun + comfort and familiarity + numbing of sorrow that makes DotA so addictive.

Numb.Not exactly the best feeling,but obviously better than depressed,right?

Speaking of,i'm not depressed.You just caught me off guard,at a very bad time too.

Like A Fool I Keep Losing My Place

Theres a danger with loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
Theres a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

I will survive.Duh.

=)

For My Own Good

Sometimes i like to pretend that i don't know you read this blog.And that sometime is now =)

But subconsciously i know that you're reading anyway,so screw it..i'll just waste more time trying hard not to sound like an idiot and blah..

So bare with me as i speak from my heart(as cliche as this sounds)..

I wished you never told me you once felt something.
Yet i wish you did.
I don't know la..
So confusing..

I wish i would just HATE YOU,
Or maybe you would just hate me..
Anything to make either one of us completely ineligible..
Cause it'll make things so simply easy..

I wish you would do the selfless thing
And just walkaway
Leave me with nothing
For my own good,okay?

Would things be different
If i admit i was willing to change?
If i let go of the meaningless
Would you still say the same?

If i had found that one star
That'll never stop shining
Or if it's not that far
The world that'll be my meaning

Do you think i would need those temporary highs
If that one real thing was mine?
Do you think i'd still shout so i won't cry
When i've found that place to hide?

If i had that fire
Do you think my desire
Would still be the meaningless?
Or would something else come first..

I don't understand why
God plays with me like this
Whenever you say Hi
My heart goes bombastic

How does your smile
Makes me smile too
When those pimples and scars
Are all over you??

The way that your butt
Jiggle when you move
Through your black work pants
So adorable,how?
I don't understand.

You stupiak accent
Is supposed to be annoying
But it brings the opposite reason
And makes you more endearing

I am just too weak
I can't let you go
I cannot just move on
I need you to do so

All that's necessary
Cause i can't find your flaws
Or maybe i've found them
But i just love them all?

That's why it's up to you
To save me from yourself
Free me from your bonds
So i can fall for somebody else

Somebody else who can fall for me too...
I beg you to help me say goodbye..
to you

You cut me deeper than you think.
You cut me deeper than i think.
You're not just one of the many..
Just so you know..
You're one and only.(Not the one and only tho)